My soul shall be satisfied as with fat and rich food
and my mouth will praise you with joyful lips
Psalm 63:5
Talk about one of my hardest months, AGAIN! As if I didn't learn things the first time around. God brought me back here to teach me new things, maybe things I should have learned last September. I'm seriously so thankful to Him for loving me enough to bring me back to a place and say,
"Hey, you had a rough time here. I know that you can PROSPER here, so try again."
Some things that sit over Moldova.
-spirit of comparison: something like six people die, four emigrate and five are born daily. I don't know if there's one Moldovan who desires to stay in this country. Most everyone thinks there's a better life in Russia, Italy, Spain, Canada, America, anywhere.
-spirit of depression: self explanatory
-fear of man and oppression: these people lived under communist rule and now they have no leader, no president to lead them anywhere.
God literally broke my heart for this country the other morning. As we sat in worship He began to speak to me.
I kept hearing the word "home." What is "home?"
When you boil it all down, walk it through the fire, our Father is at home inside of us and we are at home with Him. So if you've found Him, you're at home. Where you're at RIGHT now is home.
God's heart hurts because there's a land he created that the inhabitants are disgusted with. He created a land that even His "missionaries" very quickly start to have the same disgust and desire to leave.
I'm not gonna go into all the junk of why this is true, of what fuels people's hearts, including mine, to look forward to something different. Here's why I absolutely LOVE this place.
-It is insanely beautiful. The north part is covered with forests, protected, uninhabited forests with PURE air: fresh, clean, newly generated oxygen from who knows how many trees.
-It's simple living. No running water, unless you have the money to pay for it. There are wells everywhere! You get to go down and draw water from a well. No internet and no need for a cell phone.
-It snows here. Snow is ridiculously beautiful.
-They have some of the best wine in the world, maybe?
-The people. There's a sweet thing you find here that you can't find somewhere else, Russians and Moldavians living and working together. There's a sweet blend of the language because of this.
-The produce of this land is insane. The fruit and vegetable juices that are made are the sweetest of the sweetest, the thickest of the thickest. At any store you can find single fruit juices and a lot of sweet multiple fruit mixes. Grape and apple, Grapple, juice is one of my favorites.
-The land is INSANELY rich. The soil is BLACK and THICK, you can plant a fence post and it would probably start growing. Seriously though, the life that this land is ready to produce is ridiculous. It just keeps getting richer and richer and richer.
People who are born here, and people who visit, are going to start recognizing that life is to be had here. This country is going to become one of those places that people DREAM about being able to go.
So, Father, what did I learn here?
"Be satisfied. Be satisfied in EVERY moment. Quit looking forward to your next country, to your next luxury. Quit comparing. Even when the comparison seems good cuz you're saying good things about where you're at now... you're doggin the place you're comparin. And that place you're doggin is My place, My creation, My presence My spirit rests there."
Anything else?
"I'm proud of you, son. You're a man of humility. You're coming deeper and deeper with me. You're holding My hand and letting me lead you even when you can't see what is in front of Us. I love the fire that's the source of your eyes. I love the river rapid that is the source of your voice. I just love you, son."
Father, You're ridiculous. I can't imagine this life without you. You seriously make this physical life better than it already is. Knowing You makes waterfalls louder, the skies bluer, the trees stronger, the oceans deeper. You soften my interactions with people, you slow down the time that I have with Your people, I feel like I literally have more time to invest in people and more time to grow as an individual. I don't know how You do it! HAha. I'm satisfied with You. Thank you for where You have me. Thank you for trusting me.
Today's home is Chisinau by day, and overnight train.
Tomorrow's home doesn't matter.
